December 31, 2008. the day i got my heart broken.
when i met him that's the time i learned to love deeply and to understand truthfully, but he let me go. i love him. more than he knows. even though it doesn’t show.
maybe it’s just that we're not ready for a commitment. because the other half would only get hurt. i never thought i would lose him. i’m not ready for this. it pains to know he’s ready to hold off to what we got. it hurts. though again, it doesn’t show. many are deceived by smiles and by the way you act and look, but rarely do people notice the real YOU, or people who see right THROUGH you.
i don’t want him to go. i don’t know if i could do it. maybe for a period of time, i won’t want to choose and have another. so what if i want to be alone? who the hell cares?
i love him more than he could know. the inner part of me is struggling to get out, and tell him
"i loved you. i love you still, and i will always love you. you’ll always be a part of me." it hurts, like my chest was ripped off and my heart has been torn apart.
if he really would have to go, i don’t know if i can do things on my own again. i don’t know if i could fall that deeply again. many times have i told myself not to fall in love. and i would try to do it again. not to fall in love. cause i can’t afford to.
i love him so much. i love him with every part of me. i love him with all of ME.
i don’t want you to go.
i love you so. though it doesn’t show. :’(
you’ll never be forgotten. you’ll always be in my heart. ~
you broke my heart with what you did, but i still love you with all those broken pieces.
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